Day 346: Weight Loss Math

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So I’ve never really been “good” at losing weight nor at math. This year, however, God has worked a miracle and enabled me to lose weight.

However, I’m not sure even a miracle could heal me of my mathematical inadequacies.

But I do enjoy the whole word equation thing… it’s like 97% words and 2% math.

(Haha- did you get my little math humor right there?)

So, here is your word-math equation of the day.

Not Full ≠ Hungry

Yep. Crazy awesome math there, eh?

But it’s a recent “revelation” that I’ve had. I was sitting on my couch with my son and I was like “Hmmmm, I’m hungry… I should get something to eat.” And immediately I started going through some of my excuses to eat something other than fruit (like I talked about yesterday)… today’s was the one “Oh well, I ate breakfast like half-an-hour ago {mind you, for one thing, I thought this without actually looking at the clock to confirm it had been 30 minutes} so this could still count as breakfast.

But luckily, because I “confessed”, in the form of my blog post, those thoughts yesterday and re-read that “confession” again this morning, I was ready. I knew that those were lies. tricks. deceptions.

So, as I thought through my “hunger pains”… I sorta realized, “Wait. I’m not really hungry. I’m just not… full.

And that’s when I came to my word-math equation…

Being “not full” does not necessarily equal being hungry. I mean… just because I’m not stuffed to the brim having to put on PJ pants just to be comfortable does not mean that I need to go have a snack. There are several “stages” of my belly volume:

  • empty/hungry
  • “aware” of my stomach
  • satiated
  • full
  • stuffed

And so you see there is a land between hungry and satiated. You know… that part of the morning where it’s no longer breakfast but it’s not lunch time either. (Ya know, right about the time McDonald’s closes its breakfast line when you are on a road trip.) And you’re starting to feel a little hungry but you aren’t quite salivating yet or dreaming and planning of what you’re gonna eat.

Well, actually… sometimes I still dream and plan what I’m gonna eat for lunch or dinner. Not nearly as much as I used to, but it does still happen.

Anyway, my whole point was reminding myself that just because I am aware of my stomach doesn’t mean I need to run to the fridge to get something. I like Gwen Shamblin’s (yes, I know some people think she’s crazy, but I do like this) idea to wait for 15 minutes and see if you are still hungry before having a snack. Oftentimes this will reveal true-hunger or circumstance-hunger (like boredom, stress, procrastination, etc).

    A person who is full refuses honey, but even bitter food tastes sweet to the hungry. Proverbs 27:7

Day 336: Sin Switch

I was thinking this morning about  how I am going to need to stay with my covenant for a longer stretch of time.

I got a bit of a complex, wondering a bit why I needed to still stay with it when the people on the WeighDown testimonials had been skinny for years and years. Was there something “wrong” with my covenant? Was there something “wrong” with me?

But then I was reminded that not everyone that has done WeighDown has lost tons of weight and kept it off. I have a friend that did a WeighDown course and lost weight but gained it back.

And ya know… I think I am having to readjust just as much of my mind to remember that gluttony and food addiction are not just sins that you can switch on and off like a light switch.

These sins are sooooooo ingrained into my flesh and my habits that it will take years (and possibly my entire lifetime) to overcome. And maybe that’s how I’ve gotten so far in my life without really breaking this addiction… I did all these diets and short-term “fixes” when really I needed to address the main issue of gluttony and all the things that pushed me toward gluttony (boredom, procrastination, sadness, etc). It was like that analogy… a diet is like putting a bandaid on a seriously massive, festering wound and expecting it to heal.

I’ve focused on the short game for so long, and now I’m finally addressing the REAL issues in my heart that drive me to overeat.

And our dear friend Paul understood the struggle with sin so well…

The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. Romans 7:14-15

So, so, so accurate… but here’s what I love about what Paul has to say even more. Just this kind of talk is depressing. Full of hopelessness, but Paul always seems to point us back to The One Who Saves…

I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 7:22-25

And if PAUL HIMSELF continued to struggle with sin, even after having been blinded by the glory of Christ on the road to Damascus, well… then… maybe I’m not such a spiritual freak after all. But I have hope… I continue to run this race because, Jesus Christ will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death!

He is the switch… no matter how many times I sneak into my soul and flip it back down and pout in the darkness, He has the power to flip that switch back on… and flood me with Light.