Day 678: Such A Yo-Yo

Every once in a while I have an epiphany. And I think to myself: This is it. I have reached a whole new level of intelligence.

Of course, give it a few days (or even a few hours or minutes) and I often realize that my “epiphany” may have been nothing more than me just finally realizing what the rest of the world has already figured out.

Like…… my recent epiphany about dieting.

I always subconsciously fear a healthy eating lifestyle because the closest I’ve ever gotten to a healthy eating lifestyle is when I’m on a diet trying to lose weight.

And gosh… let’s be real here: being on a diet is LAME. not fun. unenjoyable. plain downright sucky.

So, why would I want to do that for the rest of my life?!?!?

Well, I “figured out” this week that dieting is often a realllllllllly different experience than trying to maintain weight. With dieting you have to work twice as hard and abstain twice as much in order to lose. Whereas with maintaining you still have to work at it but it’s not nearly as difficult because you aren’t trying to maintain AND lose weight.

I am seeing that I need to craft my “diet” this way:

  1. Choose a healthy eating and living LIFEstyle that sounds doable.
  2. Make it a little extra stringent and double my working out for a bit to lose the weight.
  3. Once my weight is lost, revert back to the healthy eating lifestyle I picked in the beginning.

For example, here are the three steps that I should follow:

  1. I have chosen a vegetarian/Daniel Plan lifestyle with 30 minutes of yoga a day, 4 or 5 times a week.
  2. To lose weight, maybe I cut out all bread and chips and only drink water, cut my portions in half, and do yoga an hour a day instead of 30 minutes.
  3. Then, after I lose the weight, stick with the vegetarian/Daniel Plan but maybe toss in a tortilla every once in a while, have chips for a side, and bump my working out back down to 30 minutes.

So it’s not really a hugechange from the diet to the lifestyle.

So, what am I rambling about with my epiphany that wasn’t really an epiphany?

A diet is not forever. It is a way to get your body back to what you view as its “best”. You often have to work and sacrifice to do this.

When your body gets back to its best, the “reward” shouldn’t be chocolate and steak for breakfast but instead that you don’t have to work and sacrifice as much or as hard to keep that “best body”.

Like I said… you might be reading this and thinking, “Uhhhhhhhh hello? Everyone knows this.” But it really just sorta hit me this week.

I always thought of it like this:

Struggle through my diet
Lose weight
Go back to original eating habits

No wonder I have yo-yoed with my weight my whole life.

A diet is simply a healthy eating lifestyle… on steroids for a while.

For some reason it just makes me feel better knowing that. Knowing that maybe if I take this approach I won’t be such a yo-yo this time!

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Day Ninety-One: Obedient Kisses

I am still a bit amazed at how far I’ve come… I mean… how far God has brought me. And I’m also continually amazed at how well this covenant thing works, despite my slip-ups, because the food I eat and don’t eat are not that dissimilar to the ones I have eaten, and not eaten, on diets before. Only a big difference is the motivation and the accountability. And the biggest difference is that both the motivation and the accountability are from and with God.

Before I would have used an upcoming event- a friend’s wedding, a beach trip, etc. as my motivation. And although those are rewarding, my heart and mind had gotten to the point where the “reward” of chocolate was MORE rewarding than the thought of something in the future. And so the only thing that would motivate me more was my love for God.

Same with accountability- WeightWatchers staff… they were important but I didn’t care about their accountability as much as I “neeeeeeeeded” chocolate. My family members… who are the most important things in the world to me… but that chocolate would still supersede my love for them. (And that still pains me a bit to admit to even myself, but I can say that a lot of that was because the THINGS of this world were still so important to me that the eternal things, like love for my family, had wasted away). But my love for God was stronger.

It is strong enough to make me obey Him. And that is how he says he wants us to show Him love… to obey Him. At a women’s retreat, Brenna Stull told a story (and the full, “live” version was way cuter, but this is a abridged version) about how she wanted to take a nap but she had a three-year-old who had dropped her nap, so she told her daughter, “You don’t have to sleep… all you have to do is lay still in bed with me and close your eyes.” Well, once they got settled in for a nap, her daughter started kissing her arm once, then two kisses, three kisses, then all the way up her arm. Finally, Brenna said, “I don’t WANT your kisses… I want you to obey me!” And I think that is where a lot of the reward in this covenant comes from… it gave me not only freedom from food, but a way to SHOW God my love… through obedience.

If you love me, show it by doing what I’ve told you. John 14:15