Day 228: Chocolate Chip Cookie Confessions

I went to Albertson’s recently for my grocery shopping since I needed some specific cooking ingredients that I can’t ever seem to find at Target (which is like 3 minutes from me so I shop there a lot). Plus I realllllly wanted some Brianne’s Blue Cheese Dressing and they only have that at Albertson’s.

While I was there I had finished up my “dry” shopping (like stuff that is packaged) and my frozen shopping and was heading back over to the veggies to finish up. (I finally figured out about a year ago to save shopping for veggies, fruits, bread, and eggs until the end of my trip so I don’t have to constantly keep them from getting smushed.

Anyway, that “path” through the store forces me to go past the Albertson’s bakery. You know, where they make those bags of chocolate chip cookies. Those delicious chocolate chip cookies. Soft and chewy. {drool}

Well, I always used to take my oldest son with me shopping and he would always convince me to get him a bag of those cookies, but since he does not struggle with overeating, he would often forget that we had them and so I would proceed to devour the entire bag by myself. Of course, more often than not, hiding the entire bag from my husband so he didn’t even know we had them. Oh, sick, sick me. What a sad little puppy I was.

But yesterday I was looking through the pantry for a snack and man, my eyes kept going back to one of the boys’ pop tarts. And I knew that at that moment, we’re I finished with my covenant that I would eat it. And I knew that if I had a bag of those cookies and I were finished with my covenant that I would eat them.

And I sighed a little bit. And I admitted to myself that this covenant will go far longer than a year. For these issues run deep. But…

    But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. John 1:9

And that promise is enough to keep me going. Even if it means a 70 year covenant with Him… he will cleanse me from my wickedness!

Day Ninety-Six: What Are You Doing?

One of the aspects of this “diet” that I have tussled with is wondering how I should talk about it with someone that might not know Christ, might not like Christ, or might not be familiar with the concept of a covenant. Now that I have lost a noticeable amount of weight, people that I haven’t seen a lot lately have been asking me the regular ol’ dieters question “What are you doing?”

I have sorta varied my answers… to some I have explained that I went vegetarian and cut out sugar. to others I describe my covenant, or deal, with God to cut out meat, sugar, alcohol, and milk. to others I have just said that I stopped eating so much food.

But recently I started to think that it might be really important that I say that it is God. I mean, yes, the reason that my body is losing weight is because it has less food coming into it and probably fewer calories since I cut out all that sugar. But the reason that I am able to do any of that is because I made a deal with God and He gave me the ability to resist the things I agreed not to eat on the covenant.

And a verse came to my mind that I think pushes me to “admit” or “confess” that it is indeed Him that is changing me… from the inside… out. Literally.

If you tell others you belong to me, I will tell my Father in heaven you are my followers. But if you reject me, I will tell my Father in heaven you don’t belong to me. Matthew 10:32-33