Day 887: God, Help Me

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The past week or so I’ve been on one of those runaway mine cars… careening through food. Searching for that one bite of chocolate that would be truly worth it. {Spoiler alert: I never found anything that tasted as good as I wanted it to.}

And I finally had that moment last night as I downed my second double scooped bowl of ice cream…

This is just not working.

So, as usual, I went to bed thinking “But tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow I’ll make good choices.”

Ohhhhhhhhhhh, Tomorrow. That elusive idea of perfection. “Tomorrow” is so perfect. so untainted. so full of possibility.

And so this morning when I woke up, my mind was already trying to convince me: have some coffee ice cream in your coffee.

Oooooo, yum, right?!?!

And so I told myself “Now January. You know that’s not gonna taste as good as you imagine. You know that’s just gonna be disappointing.”

Yes. Yes, I KNOW.

Just like I knew last night that the second bowl of ice cream wasn’t gonna do it for me. And like the two Sonic shakes from this week weren’t gonna do it for me. And like the chocolate-covered caramel popcorn from Target wasn’t gonna do it.

I KNOW.

But I just… can’t. I can’t seem to resist. I can’t even make myself want to resist sometimes.

So this morning, as I waited for the hot water to get to my shower, I prayed a very deep, spiritual, theologically sound prayer…

God, help me.

And nothing happened.

Well, DUH, nothing happened. God has a tendency to work on a long term time frame. Occasionally, He slams down a healing or a revelation… but those very rarely perpetuate change. So, He often works slowly… reminding our hearts as we go.

But as the morning went on and I prayed it over and over…

God, help me. God, give me wisdom. God, help me. Give me Your hope. God, help me. Give me peace. determination. joy. perspective. love. patience. guidance. God, help me.

And I sat outside before everyone else woke up and listened to Philippians on my phone. And, well, guess what?

He. helped. me.

The Word soothed my soul. Gave me wisdom. hope. peace. determination. joy. perspective. love. patience. guidance.

Yep. He helped me alright.

And for the record… I had almond milk in my coffee.

Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too. You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had. Philippians 2:4,5

For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. Philippians 2:13

Whatever happens, my dear brothers and sisters, rejoice in the Lord. Philippians 3:1

I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us. Philippians 3:13,14

And I realllllllllly enjoyed this section this morning:

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4:6-9

 

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Comments

    • says

      Oh good! Well, God gave me the extra time this morning to finish it! My kids slept an extra thirty minutes (unprecedented)!!! And I’ve been needing to write it for days so today was the day!!!! Glad it was timely for both you and me!!!

    • says

      My pleasure! I needed to hear it all myself today also… always glad when a message for my heart is the message for someone else’s heart, too!

  1. sandra says

    I wanted to say thank you for your transparency and your determination to seek God and your words are a tremendous encouragement. I’m just on day two of my fast but so hopeful…thank you again January!

    • says

      Thank YOU for your kind words of encouragement! I’m so glad that you are experiencing a fast… they can be so awesome! (Side note: just remember that no matter how your fast goes, how it ends, etc… this whole thing is a journey and God has us on a path that we can’t see. So through the ups and the downs and ups and downs and then some more ups and downs, we just have to keep seeking Him… and keep following Him… and keep trusting Him! The blessings are in the following!)

  2. says

    I want to Thank God and you for this. I so often feel this way. Just the other day after coming to your site I sat down and stated that I took wanted to resist sweets, Starbucks Mocha Frappachino’s and International Delights Light Mocha (coffee milk – as my husband calls it)! Needless to say-I fell flat on my face! I often ask God for help with these things and I feel that He’s not failing me-but I am failing Him! The reason for my saying that is because; I turn around and do exactly what I have just asked for His help with. So yes, I find myself saying GOD HELP ME more often than not! Thanks again to God and You for this post, it lets me know that I’m not the only one that struggles.

    • says

      Haha “coffee milk”!!!! Love that! I hear ya though on all of that… it’s just like Paul says in Romans “I do what I do not want to do!” Oh heck, I’m just gonna put the whole verse chunk here… because I want you to remember that, also like Paul says, there is a power within you that is at war with your mind. Look… even Paul had a “something” in his life that he struggled with. This is an age old thing, it’s just that now it is manifested in Starbucks Mocha Frappachino’s and International Delights Light Mocha. You are not alone, and all is not lost, and the answer is Jesus Christ! I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it. And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it. I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! *****Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.**** Romans 7:15-25 NLT

    • says

      I know… over and over and over again, right!?!? I just had a mental fight with a chocolate chip cookie. {Oh, who are we kidding? I’m STILL having a mental fight with a chocolate chip cookie!} But anything that brings me back to Him and His Word over and over again… it’s worth it.

  3. P says

    I’m a binge eater..sneaking high sugar food, to make me feel better. Anyway I just read this book I downloaded called “Eat with Joy” by Rachel Marie Stone. This book makes so much sense (I’m not even done it yet !) to our lives and how we need to eat to God’s glory, I was so excited to share this info. To be honest, when I first started reading this..I was disappointed because I thought the book should explain to me, yet another way to do this, and do that, another plan..etc. It turned out to be the best book I have ever read to help me consider how God wants us to eat….and eat to live! It is so true when we cry out for help..He hears us.

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