Choice

Ya know, gaining “control” of your eating issues has a whole lot less to do with the particular foods you eat than we think. Don’t get me wrong, food choices for weight loss are important, but I’m talking about our eating issues.

Like we’ve talked about before that we eat for ALLLLLLLL the wrong reasons: bored, tired, angry, sad, hurt, sick, procrastinating, frustrated… the list goes on and on. But today I am reminded that there are choices beyond my food choices and beyond my non-hunger reasons to eat…

Today, we must choose between

HOPE and despair.

(Here’s a tip: you want to choose HOPE.)

I was gonna write a whole bunch more cutesy little opposite phrases like that but then I stopped because… really… those are your two choices.

Today you either choose despair… I can’t get over this. I am too far gone. I am so fat. I am so trapped. I am tired of trying. I just give up.

Or you choose HOPE… I am a new creation. I have Christ. I am not bound by the limitations of this world. I am a daughter/son of the King of the UNIVERSE! I can be happy. I am already complete. I can use God’s strength.

I’m not saying that you will automatically choose a salad over a burger at lunch today just cause you said a bunch of hopeful sentences, but let’s just begin today by infusing ourselves with hope… not despair… hope.

His HOPE.

Just Eat The Orange

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Do you ever just… avoid good food?

Like, even though you might really be interested in an orange… a cold, juicy, sweet orange?

But you subconsciously (or consciously) think “But it’s… healthy. I don’t want… healthy. I want a sugary sweet dessert. Not… healthy.”

So what happens?

We eat pretzels, granola bar, granola and milk, a hot dog, and who knows WHAT else just trying to avoid the orange because it’s healthy?

Yeah, well, I do that.

I did that.

And I still ended up eating the orange.

So, my message to Next-Time-Me is “JUST. EAT. THE. ORANGE.”

Let Them Eat Cake

My friend at school had her birthday yesterday and another one of the teachers made her a red velvet cake… positively loaded with icing.

It looked… awesome.

And it looked… terrible.

It looked so awesome tasty and that’s what made it look terrible. It looked like a terrible turn off the path for me. I eyed that cake through most of lunch… talking about it in my mind.

I don’t have to eat it.

But it is her birthday, so you’d better have some.

Yeah, but no one will notice if you don’t eat it.

Oh, what if the girl who made it notices if I don’t eat it and she gets her feelings hurt thinking my decline means that I don’t think it will taste good?

Maybe I could slip out before she even offers it.

But, I mean, it’s just one slice.

And that’s what got me. I remembered all the times that I’ve said “just one” and then later that always turns into “Well, since I already had one then I might as well…”

But then I remembered two other times that I’ve quite successfully celebrated my own birthday without cake… when I turned 34 and when I turned 35.

So I said to myself “Ya know. It will still be Adria’s birthday even if I don’t have cake.”

Annnnnnnnd that was it.

The struggle was over. I sat through the rest of lunch, cake-less.

But also stressless. sugarless. guiltless. gluttonless.

And yet despite all that “less”, I sure was…

HopeFULL!

One Day Of Health Does Not A Skinny-Girl Make

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I’ve joked before about how I get so disillusioned when I eat well for, like, three days… and I expect to be able to go in my closet and shimmy into my size 8s (which, let’s be honest, I could probably barely even shimmy my calf into those things at this point!)

And I’ve had to remind myself of that the past couple days. I started (yes, again) eating well on Monday AND I went to the grocery store to get the food I’d need to be successful AND I have started the past three days with a dance workout.

So I had to be careful with myself this morning as I danced in front of the mirror (yep, I’m THAT girl) and my instinct was to be all like “Whoa. Look at those chunky arms” or “Hey there, Floppy Belly!”

Because, one or two days of health does not a skinny-girl make.

BUT

One or two days of health does a skinny girl START to make.

I have to remember that the first time I went down this journey it took a while before even I noticed anything. And while I’d LOVE to be able to honestly say “This isn’t even about my body getting skinny… it’s about me wanting to take care of this vessel that God has given me!” that wouldn’t be entirely true. I do want to take care of this vessel but I, honestly, want to be skinny TOO.

Usually, the two things go hand-in-hand.

But I think what’s important is that I’ve started. It’s almost like a sign of repentance. But what’s got to be different this time is that there is no… goal. no end date. no event to lose weight for. no jeans to have to fit in to. Okay, well, there are those, but the goal is to fit in to them and STAY fitting in them.

So, one day of health may not a skinny girl make, but lots of days of health will a healthy girl make!

If This Is The Day…

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I grew up singing hymns in church. And since I would stay with my grandparents (Southern Baptist preacher and his wife) some in the summers, well, then I learned all four verses of most of those hymns.

And they tend to bubble up in my soul pretty frequently even though I don’t sing them as often anymore.

This morning, after 5 hours of sleep, I swung my legs out of bed and almost automatically said to myself…

This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it. ‭ Psalms‬ ‭118‬:‭24

But then I really started to think about that…

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can make you new.

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can restore to you the joy of his salvation and make you willing to obey. (Psalm 51:12)

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that you can allow God to open your eyes to how strong you really are.

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can turn your mourning into dancing and clothe you with joy. (Psalm 30:11)

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can show you how to be a blessing. He can show you that you are WORTH so very much and that no matter your state, you DO have something to offer the world.

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can help you become who you can be.

If this is the day that The Lord has made, then this is the day that God can make. you. free.

If this is the day The Lord has made… well then, by all means, let us rejoice and be glad in it!